"...Stand up for something. It is one of the most important lessons I have learned. Decide whether you will go with the black or white because there are no gray areas in life like this. I have learned to stick to what I believe in and ignore what others may say about it. Don't go with the world, go against the grain. I may make a wrong decision sometimes but standing up for something, also entails responsibility for whatever it will lead me to..."
-Rovy P. Malasan, Lampara 2008 FEU-NRMF
One of most helpless state you could ever experience is during those times when you don't know what to do. When all you have been doing is wrestling with alternatives and you never come up with a decision. It breaks my heart that I'm someone who is not afraid to take risks, someone who is not stopped by the fear of change-- but still I can't move forward because I cannot decide what to do in the first place. It's hard to wait. To just wait. You see, not knowing what to do is far harder than making a hard decision. I can seek advice. I can consider possibilities as much as I want, but at the end of the day, I'm still the only person who can decide for myself. At this point, I've made a hard decision, that leaves me no choice but to stand up for it-- no matter what the outcome will be.
If your Facebook status is about “love,” it might receive the most number of comments and probably like’s. If your tweet is about “dating,” it could be a trending topic for the day. If a song is “romantic” inspired, it would most likely top the music hit chart. If a movie portrays a good "love story," it would probably be one of the must see’s.
I would agree, though not totally to one Philippine Star Sunday Lifestyle Relationships (March 22, 2009) article, which says, “...we’re simply a people in love with love. That goes even for those of us who aren’t in love with anyone!”
Maybe it’s one of the reasons why this article caught my attention. Another thing is that the article, which is actually titled, “How and why I stopped being a serial dater,” is written from a guy’s perspective and he talked about dating in a different; or I say more sensible way.
“I’m the last person to assume to be authoritative about romance,” he said. “The best thing I’ve done with most of my relationships is to see them end, with a fundamental reason—I was in relationships for so many years and with so many folks for all the wrong reasons.”
“The biggest mistake? Getting into a relationship just for the heck of it. Or to escape a family situation, or a family, or yourself. To escape for any reason.”
He also mentioned the importance of love and respect in a relationship. “And never expect that love and respect go hand in hand. Sometimes they don’t. I’ve loved people I didn’t respect all that much, and I’ve respected some I wasn’t in love with.”
“....Proving love and earning respect take time and patience,” he added.
He also told about “Panacea,” which the meaning I’ve found out to be a remedy for all diseases, evils, or difficulties or a cure-all.
“Another big mistake I had was using my partner as panacea for not having dealt with personal issues I should have resolved before getting into any relationship. In the Philippines, we spend a huge amount of time not dealing with our issues, whether they involve parents, siblings, or ourselves.”
Lastly, here’s his point that I like the most. “Before you fall in love—even before you think you’ve fallen—take a breather and call a shrink. We’re a people who should have a national therapy conversation. The most important relationship you should ensure is with yourself first. [I say, God first. Yourself next.]Unless you fix what is inside, no other person, no matter how wonderful he or she maybe, will be able to do it for you.”
It's a tiring day of sorting stuffs and throwing off things I don't need already and there are lots them! Whew. My room says she feels lighter now. Haha.
I've found a dirty box and there was a tiny notebook in there that I personalized as a slumbook way back in High school. :D Old school is cool.
Top Picks?
Q: What makes you smile?
Nikki: crush! KC: Jowell's jokes
Q: Your day is incomplete if you did not...
Rona: take a bath Joy: Breathe -Oo nga naman! haha
Q: Extraordinary power you wanted...Why?
Thel: See future thru people's eyes. -Whew. ang lalim! Jowell: Immortality...I don't want to die. -Haha Rona: Read minds
Q: First country you wanted to tour. Why?
Nikki: US.. para tisay! Marj: Continent na lang..Europe! Jowell: Philippines...tanga masaya dito! -hahaha
Q: If your life is a movie, what will be its title?
Thel: In the Eye's of a Teen Nikki: Flirt in the School Rona: Rona the Great Joy: Joy's World Marj: Foolish Mind KC: Simple KC -Wow, parang Simply KC lang.. Ginaya ka!
Q: Motto
Thel: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return Rona: Lier goes to hell Joy: Everything happens for a reason Marj: Live life to the fullest! KC: Enjoy life
Dedications
Nikki: "...Muztah? Tagal nang buhay , no? Gusto ko na yatang mamatay eh (joke)"
Rona: "...Basta remember kahit kasing laki lang ng kamao ang puso ko, nandun ka."
KC: "...Tnx for letting me sign here (kahit di tayo masyadong close)" -second yr highschool pa kasi to eh. haha
And the best among the rest dedications:
Jowell: "Thx for letting me 2 sign in ur flirting autograph like u. (JOKE) Thx rin bcoz I have a friend like u bcoz sa lahat ng flirt u r the one who is very behave." -hahaha
There's one song I heard today that really captured my present thoughts and feelings towards God.
Sometimes my little heart can't understand What's in Your will, what's in Your plan. So many times I'm tempted to ask You why, But I can never forget it for long. Lord, what You do could not be wrong. So I believe You, even when I must cry.
Do I trust You, Lord? Does the river flow? Do I trust You, Lord? Does the north wind blow?
You can see my heart, You can read my mind, And You got to know That I would rather die Than to lose my faith In the One I love. Do I trust You, Lord? Do I trust You?
Iknow the answers, I've given them all. But suddenly now, Ifeel so small. Shaken down to the cavity in my soul. I knowthe doctrine and theology, But right now they don't mean much to me. This time there's only one thing I've got to know.
Do I trust You, Lord? Does the robin sing? Do I trust You, Lord? Does it rain in spring?
You can see my heart, You can read my mind, And You got to know That I would rather die Than to lose my faith In the One I love. Do I trust You, Lord? Do I trust You?
I will trust You, Lord, when I don't know why. I will trust You, Lord, till the day I die. I will trust You, Lord, when I'm blind with pain! You were God before, and You'll never change. I will trust You. I will trust You. I will trust You, Lord. I will trust You.
Four years ago, I asked God for a church. It was a very specific prayer that goes like this: 1) I want a church that accepts Jesus as God, a church that no one is lifted up but God alone. 2) I want a church where I can grow in my walk with God.
When I took a leap of faith and walked in to Victory Christian Fellowship alone, without anyone invited me, I began to know about Every Nation Ministry, and God gave me more than what I have asked for.
There, I found not a new religion. I found Jesus. Jesus as a real Person whom you can talk to anytime, Jesus who is my Savior, the only ticket to heaven, Jesus who is a friend, aLord , A FATHER.
I cannot describe the three-day convention (July 22-24) I've been in one word like masaya or enjoy. It's beyond those words that up to now, I cannot really find a word fit enough for me to express what has just happened. After hearing speakers from different nations like Africa, Europe, US, India, China, Iran, Australia, Philippines, etc., though I struggled to understand shifting English accents haha. I can't help but to think that this God I know is so vast.. He cannot be bounded in a single corner of the universe.
One thing that really caught me was the testimonies of God’s people from nations where being a Christian risk being persecuted.
This is a privilege that I am in a country where I am free to declare God’s name, where I am free to worship and praise Him.
Speaking of Praise and Worship, one thought came to mind. I remembered people throwing a party at night clubs, bars, and the like. In those places, they dance. At this convention, we also danced. They sang. We sang, as well. They scream. We did the same. They jump in ecstasy. We also did! The only difference is the Music played and the intention of doing it.
I believe that every energy God gives for us to sing, to dance, to jump, and to scream can also be used for Him. It’s a sad thing that most people prefer to use it for other stuffs more than God.
Even King David “leaped and danced before God..” (2 Samuel 6:16) And when despised by her wife because of his act, he said, “I will become even more undignified than this.” (2 Samuel6:21)
For years, I ‘ve learned that being in the presence of God is not at all sober like most who confess to know God used to believe. :)
In this world conference, it was amazing to see a former Jew and former Muslim in one stage. A terrorist turned campus missionary. A Communist turned Pastor and a lot more!
I once told this to a friend: “I’ve never seen visions like others did. I’ve never seen an “extravagant” miracle like others might have already seen. I never saw Jesus tangibly like others had. I’ve never heard Him talk to me audibly, though I wish I did. I’ve never seen anything in the spiritual realm, though I believe it exists, but every time I see ONE life being changed or has changed because of Jesus, that’s enough for me to believe that my God still exists and is alive.”
(photos by Jerrik Legaspi on EN2010 Manila album on facebook)
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Some things are notmeant for me, maybe just for now, or maybe forever. The only thing I can do at the moment is to let go of it, hold on to what I have today, and hope for the things that are still to come.
Monday, June 28, 2010
"You ARE unique and hencesimplyincomparable. Do not buy into being reduced to an object of comparison"
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