DO I TRUST YOU?

There's one song I heard today that really captured my present thoughts and feelings towards God.

Sometimes my little heart can't understand
What's in Your will, what's in Your plan.
So many times I'm tempted to ask You why,
But I can never forget it for long.
Lord, what You do could not be wrong.
So I believe You, even when I must cry.

Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the river flow?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the north wind blow?

You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

I know the answers, I've given them all.
But suddenly now, I feel so small.
Shaken down to the cavity in my soul.
I know the doctrine and theology,
But right now they don't mean much to me.
This time there's only one thing I've got to know.

Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the robin sing?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does it rain in spring?

You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

I will trust You, Lord, when I don't know why.
I will trust You, Lord, till the day I die.
I will trust You, Lord, when I'm blind with pain!
You were God before, and You'll never change.
I will trust You.
I will trust You.
I will trust You, Lord.
I will trust You.

WHY GOD?

Have you ever noticed that people tend to blame God the most?

I did, because consciously or unconsciously, I found myself blaming God, many times.

When I haven’t had sleep and I wanted to rest but some party goes on in the neighbourhood and they make noise, I ask God, “Why here?”

When I can’t sleep without any reason at all, I ask God “Why won’t you allow me to sleep?”

When a rain pours out while I’m out wearing my all-white clinical uniform, I ask God “Why now?”

When a flood took hundreds of lives, I ask God, “Why them?”

When a massacre happened, I ask God, “Why did you allow such bloodshed?”

When I become frustrated over a sinful habit, I ask God, “Why don’t you stop this?”

When I’ve hurt someone because of my words, I ask God, “Why did you allow me to say it?”

When I feel distant to God even if I longed for Him so much and all I can say is, "Why?" And the list goes longer.
So why do we blame God like this?

Maybe because we know that He is God and as a God, we thought He has the power to manipulate things according to what we want and what we see fit for us. But we sometimes forget that He gave us a free will to decide on our own. And when we’ve used our free will to do what pleases us, then it only led us messing our lives, we blame God.

When in fact, this free will that we have is meant to be used to voluntarily seek God’s will and live for it.

So then, after all those multiply questions, does God answer WHY?

Well, the more frustrating thing is he does not.

As to why God allows unfair, brutal and tragic things to happen, I think as finite humans, we are not in the business of asking why.

Because like Phillip Yancey wrote, the answers remain in God’s domain and God has not seen fit to reveal them. As creatures, we have finite minds that can’t comprehend the infinite mind of God. I think, even if He tells the answers, we would never understand...

The only thing God asks of us is not to know the why’s but to trust Him that He knows what He is doing, and to believe that out of evil, even out of a terrible evil, God can bring out the good. I believe He asks us to believe and trust in Him because as humans, it’s beyond our capacities to know everything; and the only thing we are capable to do is to believe and trust in Him.