LOST

It's been awhile since I wrote something about my life. I wanted to write something, but that would force me to look straight at the reality of my life, which hurts a lot. So before I write a sentence or two, I back off. Lately, my heart goes from being hopeful to being frustrated, then back to being hopeful again. And since I made this blog primarily to inspire and a medium of blessing to other people, I don't want a record of those.

I don't know where I am-- in life. I don't know why I am going to a "certain" place everyday and do the things I do. I never dreamed of doing this-- Yes, it might be my mistake that I took a course 5 years ago, that I am not really passionate about. And now, I don't know how and where to stand to make things right. A lost feeling haunts me almost everyday that I just manage to get rid off for the sake of the people who are serving me, and for the people whom I am serving. It's an ugly feeling to wake up everyday, knowing that you're not on the road to your dreams and passions. I feel out f lane. But if you have a dream, you just can't give up... I've been angry with so many things in life. But right now, I feel confused rather than mad. Though I am better, I still feel lost . I don't know where I am. I don't know where I am going. And I don't know how to help myself. And though Truth tells me that I'm not alone, I feel so alone-- inside.