A PRAYER

A prayer I wrote way back March, 2010. The past YOU can sometimes be a source of encouragement to your present self. 

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Lord, thank you for loving me this much, even if I don’t feel that much.

Thank you for the everyday struggles I have; that means that the good in me is still battling against the bad.

Thank you for giving me opportunities — a lot of them— to wait, to seek, and to be patient, even if I just fail most of the time.

Thank you for the discomforts in “what is”— because they keep me longing and hoping for “what is to come.”

Thank you for the promise of redemption— not only from sin, but also from who I’m not.

Lord, thank you for this love…even if it’s beyond my senses, beyond what my heart can contain.

Lord, I may not sometimes be able to choose what I feel, but thank you for the that I can still choose what to BELIEVE.

Lord, give me the faith of a child. Help me believe that I AM LOVED; that I MATTER to YOU; that I’m PRECIOUS; that I’m WORTHY; that I’m SPECIAL; that YOU DELIGHT in me—- even if the world in and around me makes me feel just the opposite.

Lord, give me back I used to have, a heart that refuses temptations because it doesn’t want to hurt you; and a heart that desires to do good because it wants to please you.

Lord, make my heart tender so that it would grieve with you and rejoice with you, as well.

Lord, I want this numbness to go away. I want to feel that I’m still alive.

Help me gather myself back every time my world scatters me inside.

Help me rest my security in you alone— in my worth as your daughter.

Thank you for this trust you have for me— even if I don’t deserve it. Help me trust you in return, because you deserve it.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen"