ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?

"Clouds and thick darkness surround him; righteousness and justice are the foundation of his throne." -Psalm 97:2

There are times when even if you're  you're wide awake, walking in life at high noon, there comes dark alleys that you will have no choice but to walk through because there's no other way. I often wonder why of all things that will surround God-- He has chosen thick darkness. Who wouldn't be afraid of the dark? 

"The people remained at a distance, while Moses approached the thick darkness where God was" -Exodus 20:21

Well, maybe, for all of us who feels like we have been trapped in this life's dark and empty hours, we can hope that God is also where we are. The truth is, we cannot really go deeper in our relationship with God while remaining at the distance, where light and comfort is. Sometimes, we have to risk approaching the thick darkness to truly encounter this God. What makes it harder is that, we cannot really totally outdo our initial response to darkness which is often panic and fear. It may take some time to calm ourselves down and allow peace to go back. By then, hopefully, there in thick and overwhelming darkness, we can see God shining the brightest. 

DOES GOD CARE ABOUT YOUR LOVELIFE?

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“God, where are you in this?” my heart cried silently. “I am your child. All my life, you know I have longed for something beautiful. I have searched for true love. Does a pure and perfect romance even exist in this dark world of lust and perversion and sin? Should I even dare to dream of something beyond the shallow, meaningless, cheap version of love I’ve known so far?”

Then came a soft, gentle tugging upon my heart. Suddenly I somehow knew that my life did not need to be this way and that God had something better for me. It was almost as if God Himself was reminding me, “I am the Author of True Love; I am the Creator of Romance.”

A quiet challenge deeply touched my spirit in that moment, as if God were tenderly standing before me, with tears of boundless love in His eyes, whispering to my heart, “You have searched for true love in your own way. But My ways are not your ways. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must trust Me with the pen of this precious area of your life. Will you let Me write your love story?”

-Leslie Ludy, When God Writes Your Love Story

WHY I DON'T DREAD V.DAY (the way I used to) EVEN IF I'M SINGLE?
1. I already view Romance from a different perspective. Different means from God's perspective, that is what the Bible and not the hollywood, teleserye's, and what the most of the people in the world say about love.
2. I've had enough of years wanting and longing for the wrong kind of love from the wrong person at the wrong time.
3. I'm up to giving my heart to God, fully...(which is a long and tough journey) so that He can give it to the man of His choice for me.
4. God is the Author of My LIFE, that means He is also the Author of my LOVE STORY.
5. I'm not just "waiting "to become a boy's girlfriend, I'm "waiting" to become a man's wife.

“To wait for the right person, ultimately is to make oneself the right one for whoever God has prepared for you...”

-Evelyn Miranda Feliciano, Love and Courtship

Happy Valentine's Day! ♥

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-edited by me. (words from the song  Found by Phillip LaRue)

TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF MY 21st YEAR

And it was all about LOVE ♥
and a START of something new.


New series to learn from church.
New year.
New activities this week. 

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF MY 20th YEAR

It's a "Tangled" way to end my 20th year. :) The lantern part mesmerized me. And I fell in ♥ with Flynn Rider. :)

I've known Rapunzel since I was a kid but I never knew a thing about Rapunzel's story until now. The love story was not that mushy but it was interesting-- almost heartbreaking but still, amazing! 

By the way, Rapunzel is now my favorite Disney Princess at least from the point of view of this movie, that is, absolutely in contrast to Shrek 3's Rapunzel.:)

A QUOTE TO REMEMBER: "Rapunzel is a princess worth waiting for."- Eugene Fitzherbert a.k.a. Flynn Rider

FEBRUARY 4, 2011

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If I am to describe this day, I think the following words will fit. 

"Making decisions was the painful part of me, the part I agonized over. But once the decision was made, I simply followed through--- usually with relief that the choice was made. Sometimes, the belief was tainted by despair...But it was still better than wrestling with the alternatives."

-Bella, Twilight

 "...I may make a wrong decision sometimes but standing up for something, also entails responsibility for whatever it will lead me to..." (a repost)

-Rovy P. Malasan, Lampara 2008
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THIRSTY

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Sometimes, you just want to shut off your mind from all the knowledge you've had about God, and you just want to encounter God, Himself, right in your heart. It's like digging an old treasure you were once so happy about that you've found it. 

Me, holding on to my faith "lately"(for I feel like it's been like forever) is like gasping for air to breathe in oxygen before it's too late to be alive. 

I've read Philip Yancey's Reaching For an Invisible God, and it remains one of my favorite books. But "lately," it feels like I, the one who is reaching out, is the one invisible, and not God. I know and believe that this God I know exists. No one and nothing can make me forsake that belief in this life time. It's just that when I come in to the picture "lately," I feel like God looks past through me. I feel like I've been pounding on His door and no one inside hears a thing. Whew. I am blown away. Life has been beating us up on our finances, my health, and now, even my future..My very near future. 

I don't feel Him that much, I don't hear Him..and it hurts..because He knows, more than anyone else that I need His voice, I need Him, now more than ever, before.

Everything about "lately" hurts already. 

All I have is His naked Truth, that I don't even feel like holding on to...but if I let go, nothing will be left for me..I don't feel like I want to live for Him already..but again, again and again, I don't know how to live without Him anymore.