BREATHING AND LETTING GO

"You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go."

-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

At one point in your life, you have to let go. Whether it would be a person, a problem, a dream, or even a desire-- somehow, somewhere, you have to let it go. 

Letting go, for me, does not mean giving up. It comes from a heart, brave enough to admit that the thing he/she holds on to, needs to breathe and fly. 

Holding on too much can hurt-- to the object being held and to the person who holds. 

I've hold on to a lot of things thinking I should have it here-- now or never. But little did I know, it was making me too uptight and tensed, that I forgot to take a breather and relax for awhile. 

Four months. It has been almost four months since I took the nursing board exam. If the road to board exam was looong and rough, life after it was loooooonger, rougher and rockier. It was a time of thinking things through about my life. In fact, I thought too much, making my life miserable.

There so many things I want to do, so many things I long to have, so much more than doing Nursing. But it seems like everything I wanted are out of way-- as of now. Problems in money, career and spiritual dryness creep in, making everything more difficult to handle. Moreover, my idleness lead me to a boredom overdose. And I almost lost my appetite to life.

So here I am, I quit. I'm letting go. If this life seems to be "tough," I guess I just have to be "tougher." The universe is screaming at me to relax and face life. I'm letting go... It's time to pull my hands off and allow God do His work fully. I'll walk into life carrying this hope in me that somewhere along the way, I may find again the things I have freed, when the time is right.