RANDOM PICTURES 2

20 pesos-worth-something shiny that I bought for Kris Kringle. :)

Ate Lorly's gift straight from ten-day mission trip in Taiwan. *super thanks. :)

Kevin's pasalubong from 2009 Kerygma Conference in Araneta Coliseum

I pray to know You more, be with You more, enjoy You more, love You more...

Ate Joanne's sa silong ng mangga shot on Jessica's birthday (the one not in uniform :p)

AGAIN

On this day, God wants ME to know...
... that all is well. What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present, and to come, are gently planned by One Whose only purpose is your good?

*aww. Í'll try, kahit mahirap. :) Mas mahirap maging bitter.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I wonder what it is like to own a dog that can speak! Well, I'm a pet lover. I grew up with cats and dogs in the house. Owners talk to their pets, pat them, feed them and enjoy them. But sometimes, there are some of our pet's expressions, sounds and whatever you call it that we can not fully comprehend unless, we, ourselves become like them-- become a dog perhaps. ;p

Last year, I read Bo Sanchez's book. He had a conversation with God that went like, God asking Bo if he wants to become a worm. I can't remember the whole dialogue but it has the same purpose with being a dog-- to become like them so that we can understand them better. Of course, Bo said No. Who wants to become a worm? Then God replied...

"On that very Christmas day, My only Son became a human being; a helpless infant-- so that He could save you."

Bo said, "But Lord, that's different. It's ok to be human."

Then God answered, "That's because you don't know what it means to be God. Before that day, My Son was glorious, powerful, eternal.."

Honestly, sometimes I find it hard to understand God's love. How could you understand a love that is not visibly seen? Sometimes, I wonder how God loves me if I've never felt Him hug me, while I know He does to other people. Sometimes, it's hard to believe God loves me if He won't even give me visions that would affirm it, while He does to other Christians. Sometimes, it's hard to receive God's love if I can't "hear" Him speak, while other Christians can "hear" Him easily. And there are more "sometimes" on the list. He said He loved me, loves me and will love me forever.. but sometimes, it feels like it's not really like that.

Maybe, I should go back to the very first Christmas Eve and reminisce it as much as I can. Perhaps, it's truly where I could find Merriness on Christmas. Something that could melt the walls that maybe, keeping me from receiving, feeling His LOVE for me.

More than 2,000 years ago, He became a human. I cannot imagine how hard it was for Him that from a PERFECT HEAVEN, He went to a CHAOTIC EARTH. An omnipotent God subjected Himself to time and space like us. Before, I thought that besides saving man, the purpose of His carnation was to understand humans better, but then, I learned that it was also the other way around-- for humans to understand God better. For in the face of Jesus, the invisible God had an image.

Then, He went back to Heaven but He sent the promised Holy Spirit, Who, from PERFECT HEAVEN dwelled not only on CHAOTIC EARTH but inside of the FLAWED, IMPERFECT, SINFUL HUMANS.

*Something that would make us truly MERRY on Christmas.

CAN'T GET ENOUGH

One of my favorite applications in facebook is "...On this day, God wants you to know..."

I dont know how, but everytime I'll try it, I get a message fit for me at that moment. Like this one which I just got earlier..

On this day, God wants you to know...
... that God sees you as you truly are, - a holy child of light: I see you strong and whole. I see you blessed and prospered. I see you courageous and confident. I see you capable and successful. I see you free from all limitations or bondage of any kind. I see you as the spiritually perfect being you truly are.

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because my feeling has been telling me the opposite of what is being told above.

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God, I can't get enough.. I want more. :)

RIZAL ON HIS MULTILINGUAL ABILITY

"...It is also a misfortune to understand various languages because, thus, one has more occasions to hear stupidities and nonsense. Lord, I said, thinking of God-- because regardless of what the friars say, I believe in God-- if for six or seven languages that I scarcely understand I sometimes have unpleasant moments because of nonsense I hear, what moments would God have, God who understands all languages, not only of men but also of animals? If I who am little less than ignorance itself am so irritated to hear stupid designs of only one man, how will God feel, God who is wisdom itself? How will God feel when he hears our stupid intentions, our foolish pretensions and especially the qualifications and attributes of those who dare to measure, define and interpret God, those whose occupation is ignorance, whose dogma is blindness, whose covenant is obscurantism..."

-Dr. Jose P. Rizal, Rizal Without the Overcoat (Ambeth R. Ocampo)

BARELY HOLDING ON

Broken. There are times like this,when I feel like my own soul sings this song. It owns it. It feels it. Is this new to me? No, I've felt this so many times. In fact, it came to a point when I can no longer feel it. Then, I'll feel it again.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like You've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In Your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to YOU

The broken locks were a warning You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a Purpose, they're still looking for Life

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what You will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the WORDS you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home...

ME THEN.. TIL NOV. 17,09

AN AUTOBIO MADE AS A REQUIREMENT DURING MY MENTAL HOSPITAL DUTY. :) Dunno what part of my brain was working.. I was soo tired then. Fortunately, I was able to make it up to 5 pages just as our Clinical Instructor instructed. :p

People often describe me as a quiet, academically inclined, and deep person. I am, but much more than that. People who are closer to me, those who’ve been with me for years know me better. I’m thankful that people like them know that I’m not that serious as most of other people think of me. Perhaps, I am that kind of person whom you need to spend more time with for you to know well.

I’m 19 years old, and hopefully, 3 months from now, I would be in the second decade of my life. :) I was born in Sharjah, United Arab Emirates on February 6, 1990, where my mother has been working as an OFW even before she and my father got married. According to my mom, I stayed in UAE for only fifteen days, and then she flew with me here in the Philippines. I am an only child because my mom had some reproductive disease before in which she cannot be able to conceive another child anymore. Being an only child is not that easy! No, I’m not a spoiled brat like others often think of an only child. Growing up, I have longed for a younger brother to tease with, or an older sister I can hang out with, who would giggle with me about stupid stuff. Well, that longing is still here. Sometimes, it’s strong whenever I see one, big, happy family around. Sometimes, it’s buried deep down in my heart but as I get along with myself I know that I have already accepted the fact that this what God has planned. And everything He planned is for a good reason.

I spent my childhood and elementary years in Agno, Pangasinan. That’s until 12 years of my age. Our place there is what I call home, although I don’t feel that at home anymore whenever I go back; maybe because a lot of things have changed already.

I grew up with my grandmother and grandfather (both from the father side), whom I call Nanay and Tatay; Nanay’s sister, whom I call Mama Fem; my Auntie, Uncle and Papa.

I used to be a lola’s girl maybe because my Mom only goes home during Christmas or Summer so Nanay was my mother figure back then. She is the one who’s always present at school during PTA meetings, Closing Ceremonies and in Contests I’ve joined. She is someone who should stay by my side at night so that I could sleep, someone who would chase after me with a thin, long stick whenever I did something unacceptable. I love her and Mama Fem so much. I remember that when I was just a kid, I prayed to God that He won’t allow Nanay and Mama Fem die.  Now, of course, I know that it’s not really possible, and never will be possible for any human being. So every time I go back to Agno, I try to make the most of the opportunity to show them how much I care and love them.

My childhood was, I think, normal; except that I was more excited to meet my playmates because I had no one to play with at home. I also enjoyed whenever my Mom and our relatives from abroad and Manila spend their vacation with us in Pangasinan. I really loved spending time with my cousins, especially every time we go home with black and painful skins after enjoying the beach. I have had enough visits in Hundred Islands and Sabangan beach back then. Family Reunions are incomplete without going there. If I only knew back then that those reunions will be fewer through years, I would have enjoyed them more before! Well, now, most of us are busy already and some of my tito’s and tita’s have developed conflicts. It’s just something I really miss because some things in the past can’t just happen in the present anymore.

During my elementary days, I used to be shy and really quiet but not that much anymore when I reached grades 4 up to 6. I think it’s because that time I started to join several contests, mostly in essay writing, quiz bee’s and journalism. For me, those times where the most unforgettable especially when I and some of my classmates were qualified to join contests in other places. I even had a chance to go in General Santos City in my 6th grade.

My high school life is a major turning point. I went from a not-so-uncivilized province, to one of the largest cities of the Philippines, Quezon City; in one of most unlikely streets of Bago-Bantay. My mom decided to enroll me in a high school in the city so that, according to her, I would not be that maninibago when I’ll enter College. I stayed with my mom’s sister and her family for four years. That was a major change, not only in my environment but also in my lifestyle. Their place was so small. Literally small, and with neighbors closer than what I see in our province. Good thing, my school, Quezon City Academy along EDSA and beside SM North Annex, is just a walking distance and I could go to the mall easier.

I think I had the most drama in life during high school. That was the time when me and my mom would often fight over the phone because I thought I could not take the life in that place anymore. That was the time when I cried alone in my room because I feel—Alone. Maybe because I just miss everyone and everything in the province. That was the time when I feel the weight of my problems heavier because I have no parent to talk to—like stuffs that I don’t know how to open up with my Aunt and my cousin. So I didn’t know I was becoming a rebel to my parents already. I talk back to them harshly. I raised my tone, my voice until they walked out of the house out of disappointment. I thought, back then, that they were not there when I needed them the most. My mom told me she could not understand me anymore and that worsened the situation because she is someone whom I’ve expected to understand me more than anyone else.

My aunt and cousin are born-again Christians and when I have to live with them, I was confident I won’t be like them! I knew I won’t be influenced by their religion which I thought was weird and I’ll be okey. That was my plan, but God’s plan was different. They never forced me to join with them to attend in their church but there were times I had no choice but to join. Every day I watched them reading their Bible and I never tried opening a page to read. I’ve seen them regularly pray before meals but I never joined them. Until I didn’t realize I was already regularly attending their church. I loved the songs, the atmosphere… It seems like there was a feeling inside of me that it is a place where I also belong.

There was a time when the Pastor was talking about a book titled The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. Of course, my Aunt bought one. One time, I tried to reach the book. One page, I thought. I’m just going to read one page. “It’s not about you, ” was the first words I’ve read. Then my eyes couldn’t get off the words that followed. The author was not presenting a religion, he was presenting a Person: a person who longs to have a relationship with me, to hear me speak to Him, a person who’s interested in my life that He even wants me to use that life for a Purpose, a person whom I knew by name, but never at heart, a person who knew I can never leave a life of sin by my own good works that even if I have to die to pay for my sins, it would still not be enough because everything inside me is actually sinful. He is the only Person qualified to die for me. At the cross, he paid it all. So I would not have to pay for my sins anymore. What He only asks of me is to put my faith in Him and receive Him as a Savior and a Personal God.

I’m telling all these things because from that moment I responded to His call, I was never been the same. It affected ME until the person I am right now. I’m not saying that I am already perfect like an image of a Saint, such as there’s a halo on my head and wings on my back. No, it’s just that everything I am from that time is under His influence already. My life has been patterned to what the Bible says I should live, which is His words. I’m trying to be good not to gain His favor but because it is my response to what He has done for me. My life has been rooted to Him and for Him. I tried to change my behavior towards my parents because I want to please Jesus. I’m trying to do my best in school because I want to offer Him my grades. I tried to be in control with the thoughts in my head and with the words of mouth because I don’t want to hurt Him. Yes, sometimes, I still do some crazy stuff. I get mad. I cheat. I curse. I sin.. But it’s not the same… I’m not happy doing all those things anymore because I know I’m not making Him happy. That’s what I mean. 

When I graduated high school, I was enrolled in Far Eastern University-NRMF and my parents decided to Fairview, where I could be nearer to my school. That means another major change on my part. Here we go again, I thought. I would have to leave my Aunt and cousin, whom I‘ve spent four years with. That means I will have to adapt to another environment and meet new people. But unlike before, it was easier for me to adjust since I already had a relationship with my God. My father also decided to live with me. It was a nice thing because I was never close to my father before. But since there are only two people in the house, which is me and him, we were given a chance to know each other more and develop a better relationship. I never thought before that I could laugh and joke with him like I do now. I thought he was just a serious, scary father in my childhood but now, he is a gentle, loving and a good friend to me.

When I moved to Fairview, I also prayed to God that He would give me a church, where I would be with His people who will help me grow in Him, since I knew I was leaving my church in my former place. Thankfully, He has given what I’ve asked for.

I am also thankful that I’ve met new friends way back first year college, who are good friends to me until now. They’ve made the chill year unforgettable when we were just a freshmen.

I also learned in College that I had a problem with my voice tone whenever I speak to my friends. I never thought it was wrong since I never intended to speak that way to hurt people, until I met some people friends who feel rejected every time I speak. I was hurt when I learned about that on my attitude but later I realized that it was good thing since I knew that they were honest enough to tell me about it and there is something in my attitude I need to change.

Few months from now, God willing, I will be a graduate: not only from school but also from another stage in life. I’m blessed to learn and to unlearn as well. Right now, I’m thankful for the things that I came across with since then, whether good or bad. If not for those things, I won’t be this person I am right now. There are still a lot to improve but I’m enjoying the process. I guess it is what’s truly important. :)

IRONIES

It's not new to hear that life is full of ironies. Personally, I've bumped into several ideas that are quite contradicting but seem to go hand in hand. I just thought that it is ironic, but it is true.

I've learned that...

If I need courage to fight, I need more courage to surrender.

If I need the zeal to move, I need more zeal to be still.

If I need wisdom to speak, I need more wisdom to listen.

If I need a big heart to be strong, I need a bigger heart to admit that I'm weak.

If it's painful to know that you've been lied to, sometimes it's more painful to know the truth.

If I need the will to live, I need more will to die.

If I need strength to hold on, I need more strength to let go.

Maybe, the most unforgettable irony; yet the most painful for me is that I have to go through God's absence in my life, in order to enjoy more of His presence. Well, God has never been absent. In fact, He's always present. But one doesn't always have the pivilege to feel it, right?

It went for days, weeks, then months, and years. It seems like Someone's familiar touch has withdrawn from me til it left me feel lonely and abandoned. I've been through tough times of sleeping at night and waking up in the morning without the warmth of His presence in my heart, anymore. I've been through series of questioning Him "Why?" and the need to know what's wrong also consumed me. It seems like Someone had run away and I was left behind. Like a game of hide and seek, He is nowhere to be found. But then, all those questions left unanswered until I realized that I'm left with the opportunity to submit myself to God's sovereignty: that He is free to reveal or conceal Himself; until I learn that times like these should come, for without these circumstances that allow doubt, how would my faith grow stronger? How would my soul rise to a higher level? I should be thankful to be given a favor to develop a faith in which God puts premium- a faith that strives even in His hiddenness.

Knowing Him gives me hope that one day, He'll surprise with a presence closer than I could ever have expected.

Well, ironies like these should not surprise us that much from a God who has been ironic from the beginning. A God who uses the weak to lead the strong, who choses fools to shame the wise. A God who has been Savior in a manger. A God who turned a a murderer into a preacher,a shepherd into a king, and who even made the universe out of nothing! :)

WORDS THAT CAUGHT ME TODAY

"....Because sometimes, you have to step outside the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be, the person you want to be, the person you are."

-One Tree Hill

In any class, cadre, group or genre, there are those who sink to the middle and those through hard work and God-given ability rise to the top.

-from Yahoo (Scariest Movie Stories)

Kate got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

-from a Facebook Quiz

(This one really GOT me. This message is sooo real for me that I can't help smiling for God aftet I've read it. :) )

You are called to be a creative spiritual mentor,you are a natural story-teller,you have an ability to express the love of God to children especially,and help their faith grow bountifully. You come alongside of people who ...are lost and minister to them. You persevere through trials and always encourage the weary.You understand that in order to be filled you must first be empty. You love to be a part of changing lives. You are compassionate and correct and teach other believers with love,patience and long-suffering. You are aware that you have many talents,abilities and gifts operating for the glory of God.You live a life pleasing before God and in covenant with him. You are richly blessed by your obedience! You offer your time and support to young and old alike. You have a thankful spirit towards the Lord,you have seen his faithfulness! Your passion is to see God's people come to the saving grace of Jesus!

-from a Facebook quiz again

(I was actually surprised when I read this result, because I never saw myself as a teacher! All the while, I've been thinking that I don't have the ability to teach WELL so I was really surprised. But who knows? haha. There are some words from here that I hold true for me, anyway. :) )

RANDOM PICTURES

Books I currently read.

Our borrowed street.

My Papa's favorite meryenda. haha. ;p

Funny :D I miss this.. I wish nothing has changed; but things have changed a lot already.

I'm wondering if this picture would ever happen again. :(

HIS SCHOOL

''...Everything that happended to me, everything both great and small, was something I had to learn! There was room for it in the infinite mind of the Lord and I had to seek the lesson in it, no matter how hard it was to find."

-Christ the Lord, Anne Rice

I have been thinking myself as a student of God in his high-standard, expensive and universal School. In His School, no one can cheat, because He sees everything. He hears every word I say and He knows every intention behind every act I do. In His school, there is that Book that every student must study: The Bible. And it's not enough to just study it but one would have to live by it. Of course, no school exists without examinations to give for its students. To my shame, In this School, I have taken the same tests several times and I still fail; though I thought I understood the lessons well. It hurts that I just want to drop out and leave that School.. but where would I go? I guess the compassonate Teacher of this School would never mind repeating those lessons to me until I truly learn them and finally pass The Test. :)

AT THE REAR VIEW

It's hard to be the one who's always waiting. (I think I've said this one before) But it's even harder to be the one who's always left behind... To feel like you've been in the rear for a long time while the people around you seem to advance. People come and go, they say. But it's hard to feel that you only seem to watch such scenario and not a part of it. You can adjust. Or you must adjust. Because as they say, the only constant thing in the world is CHANGE. But it seems like every change has a tint of pain, and a mixture of joy and sadness. One would just hope while waiting.

SI JUAN TAMAD, ANG DIYABLO AT ANG LIMANG MILYONG BOTO

This is a musical play we've watched at Philippine Educational Theater association last October 14-- for FREE!!

Since our group is no longer in need of DR cases, we thought of watching this play which is scheduled at 7:30 pm up to 9:30; at dahil malakas si JARL kay Maám Bacon, our level coordinator, pinayagan naman kami. :)

We stayed at Dr. Montano Ramos Hospital until 6:00 pm then we drove along Eymard Drive, New Manila, Quezon City, where PETA is located.

It was a fun night, especially for us as the target audience, I believe..

The play encourages citizens of this land, who are 18 years old and above, to take time to register and to participate in this coming election.

It playfully exposes the realities of Philippine's election world that has been part of its history-- from the candidates' perspective, to the voters, as well.

Due to some circumstances, I went home earlier so I wasn't able to finish the play.

Still, I had fun. As you watch the play, you'll realize that--for once-- you were like Juan Tamad, too. :)

UNCHANGED

"...Despite of the chaos of the present moment, God does reign; that regardless of how worthless I may feel, I truly matter to a God of love; that no pain lasts forever and no evil triumphs in the end..."

-Philip Yancey

We will truly never know what will happen tomorrow. We are living in a changing world. Unfortunately, it is changing for worse. Tragedy comes almost unexpectedly. So human plans are not sure plans at all. It seems like my faith is begining to understand that God is the only one who is unchanged.. We are like someone at the edge of a cliff, hanging on a frail tree branch to fight for his life. We need something.. someone stronger to lift us up. The question is, "Are we willing let go of the frail things we are holdin on right now, to grasp the stronger hands of Jesus?"

A LITTLE REMINISCING

Since Friendster’s popularity is already “deteriorating,” (mas uso na kasi ang facebook, twitter at kung anu-ano pang space sa cyberspace) I tried to explore my comment box, formerly testimonials (if you still remember) and I found myself smiling as I read some words from people I’ve known for years. Some also made me laugh, sigh, agree and ponder. ;) They may not say the same things now, but definitely I would like to thank them for the time they’ve spent and the efforts they’ve made to tell me how much they’ve appreciated me.

si KaTe?? she's one of my super kulit na pupils way back..wag na! secret na natin yun, ok? dalaga ka na nga...sana marunong ka na maghugas ng pinggan (remember???) tsaka...mag-ayos ng higaan (don't deny!!!) but i'm sure, you have become one of the finest young ladies around...and i'm proud of you because of that! gensan was an experience worth keepin' kasi kasama kita...o ayan, bumawi na ko ha? be good and remain with the Lord...
-LILIBETH NIVERA NAVATA 08/13/2005

c k8? isa sa mga hinahangaan q sa rum.. bkit? kc sooper talino ni2ng girl na 2 & dmi xang frendz... la xang nakakaaway & isa xang gud frend.. seatm8 kmi nung 3rd yr kc lumipat aq ng upuan.. dun q xa lalong nkilala.. grabe! hirap kopyahan ni2.. one tym nga nagtatanong aq ng sagot, dumila lng xa sa kin (BAD GIRL noh?)heheeehh! pro, sarap kausap ni2, ang daming m222han sa knya.. mgaling pa sa pgwa ng mga essay 2... nu pb?? wel, k8 sna mgkita pa rin tau sa college & sna rn mging close pa tau ngaun... heheeh! un lng... i will mizz u! luv yah fwend! heheheh! (oi! testi ko rn huh!)
-JENNIFER MAURE 10/08/2005

C kate?? Uhmm.... Well, my beloved ever na lgi kong kabaranggay sa seat plan... Lam nio b story nmin ni kate.. ac2lly, close kami hnd lng sa seat plan pti sa real lyf... Well, nung single p q.. lgi ko clang ksabay ni jowell sa pg-uwi.. Kumakain kmi, nagtatawanan.. minsan nag-aasaran.. Ac2lly, pg inasar nio xa uusok yang ilong nia.. Hehe.. Jokez.. Naghihiraman dn kmi ng notes dti.. Nlalagyan p nga nmin un ng dedications eh.. Sa 22o lng, ECHO staff yn.. Preho nga kming associate editor eh.. xa, sa SChoOl paper tpos aq nman sa yrbuk.. Di nakakasising mkilala 2ng c kate.. msaya xa ksama... at take note,, tngnan nio lhat ng shots nia iisa lng ang posing... Un lng kate!! Gud luck sa goals moh in college.. stay humble and pretty... Luv yah olweiz..
-NIKITA ANGELES 10/31/2005

kAtE!
huHu.. graduation nA! wAg mo kLimutAn uNg mGa hApi moMents ntiN ah...
eSp eCho rUm! waHehe.. Lam m nMng dMi taUng msSayang xPerienCes duN eh..
bSta aftEr gRaduatiOn, tx tx nLng ah.. aNyweiz,.,
c kAte anG iSa s mGa tRusted fRenz Q... Lab Q 2 kC xA Lng nkKatiiS s kKuLitan Q... at xEmpRe Lab diN aQ niAn dhiL aQ Lng din nkKatiiS s mGa pMatay n kuRot niAn! uN ang fOrm ng pgbAti niA eh.. Lab Q 2 kC, 1 in a miLLion 2. xA Lng aNg mRiriniG mo Lging nGreRekLamong di Q mLaman kNg mtatAwa aQ o aNo. Preho diN tAkbo ng utAk nMin. aNime adiK kMi pReho eh. mGa utAk aniMe eh npPgiwAnan n atA... rEmembEr uNg mgA tyms Last eCho gA seMinar? taU niNa kUya jp, ciSco at roGie ang nGkweKwen2han! maMimiSs tLga ktA! gRabe, everYday seeMs to be d 1st dAy we mEt. dMi Q n22kLasang bgO saU... uNg mGa kLokohaN ntiN s buHay hAyskuL. puNo ng tWanan! iLng daYs 2 go nLng b? <--- dont wori, bDay Q uNg tNatanonG Q! kLa m b kNG ano n nMn?? inGat Lgi...
-RONA MAYE GONZAGA 03/10/2006

yan c KaTe?!?! uhmm.. isa yan sa pinaka maSecRetong niLalAng sa ChuVanerzszs na World Nang M2kRje..
sabi nga namin nung 2nd yIr.. Xa Ang amInG FRUSTRATED FLIRT! panu ba nmn laging nagwawala... asus... at alam NiO ba.. pag yan Ang naging Seatm8 Mu E.. naku..d Ko Nalang alam ang mgiging reacxOn mu Pag Bigla ka nIaNg kukurUtin!!! wohoww!!!!at bigla xAng manghihila ng BuHok..my buHok Namn xAng sarili... hay naku talaga!!! BEWARE!!!
wahahaha... yang taong yan.. as in yng choovanes na yan.. isa yan sa mga taong tinetreasure kOh.. magkaron ka ba naman ng ganyang FRIEND maghahanap k pa ba?!?! dun sa umiiKoT na NOtEbOoK namin... naku Xa ang pinakapinag KuKUnaN kong Lakas.. kaze MalaKas Ang kapit nia Sa Kanya e!! as in k PAPA GOD!! super pag malungkoT ako.. She gave me EnouGh Strength!!! xempre hind mabubuo ang M2KrJe kung wala kaming KATE db?!?! ang Fangeth na nun.. MKrJe nalang... NEVER!!! kze kht na malayo na tau to eachother...connected parin!!txttxt e.
yan c KATE!ganDha Ng Lola mO!
-JOY MARIE LEONOR 04/04/2006

hay ito na po!!! eto c kate nagpatesti sakin ehh isang tao lang pagitan namn ehh!! nandi2 kami ngaun sa excel kasi wala lng!!! heeheh trip!!! aga namin kc pinalabas ng prof!!! eto c kate nakasama ko 2 dahil nung 1st day of classes eh late ako!! at kung late na nga ko ehh mas late pa xa sakin!! un un!!! unang samahan namin heheh dahil mga late!!! ang kulet!!! kausap ko na 2 sa phone ka 3 way ang lolo naming me gus2 sa lola namin!! heheh hanlabo b??? basta para bang mga butiki na ewan!!! connection??? heheh senxa na ala ko sa kondisyon ngaun para mag-isip ng mga walang kwentang baagy!! balik nga pla kay kate ehehehe eto nagsama sakin sa victory hehe ayan 2loy nahikayat ako kc namn aalis na ko ehh pinigilan pa!!! ganun tlga un noh!!! sb pa niya hindi namn cguro magagalit nanay ko!!! hay aun nakauwi ako ng 7:30!!! eto kc patesti testi pang nalalaman!!! oist ako din bigyan mo ahh!!! daya ka kung hindi!!! basta tandaan mo kung me butiki tignan mo lng!!! sasaya na araw mo!!!:p
-CHARIZA LASALA 06/30/2006

Kate de Guzman
Pinsan ko!! Grabe ganda ng friendster nyan . . kkbilib..!! simple lang yan tsaka friendly... kakaiba ung tawa nya.. hahaha ui sorry ha!! D ko po cnsadya lhat ng gnwa ko or nasabi.. sorry!!
God fearing yang tao.. hehe bagay cla ni ronylfo..haha..peace tau...luv you!
K-akabilib
A- dik s text at telepono
T-eka!! Wla na qng masabi..hehe
E- nthsistic s lhat ng bgay..
Yan c kate...
Leanne-cute
-LEANNE KAYE LIM 07/03/2006

Hmmm
si kate, simpleng tao masarap kasama, kakwentuhan, kadaldalan, kachikahan, kakulitan, at maging kaibigan.... maraming kwento sa buhay......kahit di pa kami maxado close magkakaibigan winelcome nya agad kami sa haws nila hehe... sarap tumambay sa kanila.... minsan pareho mga trip namin nito..... mahilig sa christian songs.... minsan nga nagduduet kami nito eh kahit nasa telepono lang..... matalino din yan si kate laging nakakakuha ng mataas na score sa mga quizzes namin..... kakabilib.... hehe basta ingat lagi keep your heart burnin' for JESUS.... godbless... mwahugzzzzzzz
-KATHERINE RIVAS 07/09/2006

KATE
C kate.. luv n luv ko..
Praning din yan.. kaya nga angels of the same feathers flock together.. Malambing xa kasi d mo namamalayan nkakapit n pla xa sau..he he he Xa ang pinaka matino s aming mga loka loka.. kasi xa lang ang matino.. db?? Gets mo?? Xa love na love ako (nga b??) ksi d nya ako inaasar.. ngiti lng xa ng ngiti.. Tapus pg tumawa xa nkkwindang,.. ung tawang d mo alam kung san nanggaling.. s lupa b? sa tubig?? S outer space?? Pro alam ko n s knya nanggaling un ksi xa un tumatawa eh.. hahahahaIngat lage.. hahaha Godbless!!
-LEANNE KAYE LIM 07/26/2006

kate!
wahai kate, miss na kita! wala akong matagpuang kate na ugale, kate na kurot, at kate na kulet sa uste! namumukod tangi talaga ang kate na nakilala ko sa kyoka...
miss na kita bruha. bute nalang my telepono na kayo di ba? at may unli pa... haha.
ayun sana magkita tayo sa kyoka next time... naku, baka magtatatalon ako pag nakita kita! well, ganyan kita kalab! haha.
si kate, ayan, pag wala yan sa mood, di yan masyado nangangausap. kaya malalaman mong may tampo agad. pag asa mood naman, kung hindi siya magkwekwento ng mga panaganip niyang naaalala pa niya, e mangungurot! grabe, walastik to, kasi naaalala pa niya ang mga panaginip niya... haha.
ayun, siya lang naman ang katrina rivero de guzman na lokaret.
-RONA MAYE GONZAGA 07/28/2006

Halersh Girlalu!!! Itong si KATE ay isang masayahing bata,,,!!!Gust2 ko nga yang maging close pa eh ung as in CLOSE...Wel;,well...naging close ata kmi nito nang dahil ky JULIAN!!! tama ba??? k lang sking kung 2maba ang JULIAN ko noh!!!!asawa ko pa rin xa khit anung mngyari!!!hehehehehe!!!!!...............Nagarap dw b???? k lang yan..libre ang mangrap noh!!!Ang cute ng SMILE n2ng gurl na 2!!! Akala ko nga mahinhin itong si kate eh, HINDI pla!!!!Well..,,well,,,...masarap ksama yan,,,try nio???? Hhhmmmmnnnnn.......lav na lav ko yan!!!!,.,ang BAIT kcng bata!!!Ooowwwsss tlage??????.....Jowk!!!!! Mmmmmhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaahhh hhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!Ingatzzz lagggggeeeeeeeeee!!!

Asawa ni Julian,
Ever

P.S.
Wag knang magreklamo huh??Honey aq ni Julian ko!!!!heheheheh!!!....
-EVER QUEEN LEONO 07/30/2006

kate, one of the best friend av ever had. sweet. matalino. mabait. maldita pag ma sumpong. hmmpt. masaya kasama.heaven....
-JAN CARE ROSETE 08/18/2006

kate kate ko, helllooooo.. hehe..
c kate? cya lang naman po ang isa sa mga frienship ko, actually, honestly, definitely, absolutely, and accidentally, hehehe, bestfriend ko.. lumayas yan ng agno pagkagraduate nami ng elementary kaya naman andami naming namiss na events and moments ever together, hehehe, kaya pag umuuwi yan ng agno, hay, kulang ang isang araw na daldalan.....hay kate, mis na kita.. hehe.basta, kahit sang lupalop kapa ng lamang lupa naroon ngaun, andito lang ako kabsat, okey... ingat ka palagi, hope to see you so soon and i rily miss you> mwwwwwwwaaaahhhhh>>>. Labyah!
-FLORA MAE NIBUT 09/15/2006

hay nku c kate nagmamaganda..............sapilitan ata 2ng paggawa ko ng testi kc gnawan nya rin aq......jowk......mustah n? grabeh d na me upd8d sa inyo pabayan nyo bili na rin me ng Globe.....hahahah. Lam mu.....grabeh ala aqong gnawa sa college kundi magcutting....mukha hcng mga tyanak ung mga prof q........kya nga db lilipat na me ng skul magnurcng nlang me para parehas tyo hahaha gayagaya kc aq eh.........nq c k8 sadista 2 laging nangungurot......magkakapasa braso mu d2 sa kakakurot.......laging q i2ng kasabay sa pag-uwi nung high skul........mabait 2ng batang 2......pero minsan sumpungin hahahah.....sana nuod ulit tyong cne sa sem break......wag mung sabihin na uuwi na naman u ng pangasinan.......sa holloween kna pumunta dun heheheheh.......grabeh college na tyo ha sbi mu dadalhin mu kme sa pangasinan....manghuhuli tyo ng fish at jellyfish.......hay nq lapet n rin finals namen grabeh parang ala me na22nan jowk meron rin naman kahit papaano........cge na bye..kita kits..
-JOWELL FURIGAY 09/30/2006

kate...sabi nga nia, "ka-tandem" ko siya sa lahat... from campaign manager, ECHO, pabinhian.. sobrang deep nia person... matampuhin din minsan... she's one of the "K" in M2KRJE.. photogenic.. (wui, totoo yan!) nga pla.. dunno if i posted this on previous testimonials... pero xa un very first friend ko sa kyoka! that was when we took the Alvendia Scholarship exams... damn... 4 or 5 years ago. grabe.. time flies.. we're now in college... kapwa nursing student... sa dinami-rami nursing school na pde pasukan ng QCAians... kami dalawa un nagsosolo sa kanya2 skul... she attends FEU (fairview), me in UST.. sooobrang bonding namin ngaun... kahit hndi physically... salamat sa GLOBE. nga pala thanks sa cooperation whenever i organize get-togethers. hai kate.. i love you sooooo much. i know you're one of the few real friends that i have.... i know in 10, 20, 30 years we'll still be communicating.
-ANNAH MARGARITA MONTESA 10/22/06

hey!!! k8!!! mustah kana grabeh d me mak2log kaya gawan nalang kita ng testi....nu b yng pic mu naka tirintas (tama b?) mukha kng anime...parang cast kalang ng naruto, lalabasan kana ata ng shakra hahahah.....musta naman lyf mu?? mustah nurcing.... grabeh ang hirap mgaral parang auko na nakakabored...kaw masaya b ang collej lyf....aq nga gus2 ko ulit mag high skul kc naman kainggit ung kapatid ko praktis ng praktis.....grabeh d ko tlaga mabago 2ng ugali ko anggang ngaun parang ako pa rin pinaka maingay sa rum hahahah.......hay nku k8 kelan ba tau ulit magki2ta ....mamaya may asawa kana pagnagkta tau ulit....oi!! mustah nga luv lyf mu......oi!!! may boifwend kna koh!!!! hahah...cguro kung meron nakurot mu na lahat nga bahagi ng katawan nun hahahah jowk......nka2mis ung kurot mu ala kcng nangungurot sakin ngaun collej na.....pati nanay ko d na nangungurot hahaha kaya nakakamis......hay galingan mu sa skuling mu ha!!!!..... Tik kir nlang olweyzzzz.....kit kits nlang ulit ....ingatz..
-JOWELL FURIGAY 03/03/2007

c kate.. mmm.. grabe, hinahangaan ko xa ksi ang dami nyang qualities na wahaw talaga. tsaka andami nya nagagawa na gusto ko din gawin kaso aun walang chance. hehe mabait xa,sobra. pag may hinanakit ako, xa ang nasasabihan ko tapos ung mga advice nya tumatatak sa kokote ko. she's really a good example to everyone. kahit minsan nakakatakot pag nagagalit, ngumingiti nalang kami ni cha. napaka broad din ng mga ideas nya, tsaka may prinsipyo sa buhay. masaya maging friend, game sa lahat. haha parang mentor ko yan e, kasi ung mga bagay na d ko alam xa ung nag-eexplain. basta madami pdeng sabihin kay kate na good things. kaya, d2 lng ako as long as you want me to be here. pxnxa sa shortcomings at ka-ignorantehan. love you. =)

-LEANNE KAYE LIM 04/23/2007

si kate.. hinding hindi uuwi ng walang mantsa sa uniform hahahaha!

-LEANNE KAYE LIM 01/08/2008

hoy hoy hoy hoy... hahahahaha nu ka ba.. npka fessimistic m tlaga pgdting jan.. tsk tsk.. d k naman masama eh, walang taong masama. iniisip m lng un..eto..

1.) freedom of choice - freedom to think and act. to think in a positive way. choose to control yourself.

2,) chance to change for the good - it's hard to change kung talagang my mga circumstances na nproprovoke ka..pero patience lang. tska determination. hindi ung feeling bad n kaagad. kasi anchaka, npka pessimistic lalo n ung "onting tiis nlng di m n ko mgiging klasmeyt" e anu kaya un?? prang sinabi mong tinitiis ko lang n ksama ka.. i enjoy your company.. pati sila claire and cha. so wala naman akong pakialam kahit masungitan m ko ng mraming beses.
bsta un lng payo ko, never give in sa ganyan. yan ang lalason sayo. bsta think of people na ina accept ka as you are.. un lang. mrami ngmamahal sayo khit mrami kng shortcomings. =)

-LEANNE KAYE LIM 01/13/2008

You’ve got to hate her to love her and vice versa. She knows what she wants at dun ako bilib sa kanya. Kasi ako minsan hindi ko na alam ang gusto ko dahil sa sobrang-dami. He..He..He..This gal has ‘focus’ too. She never procrastinate. I still remember her H.S days when used to live with us. Yung mga projects niya na 2 to 3 months pa ang pasahan she’ll do it in a matter of days! Henyo kasi ang isang 2 eh..While her classmates cram pag malapit na ang pasahan, kaya xia? Pa banjing-banjing na lang.She also knows how to enjoy! And that is one of my best descriptions of her. Kahit san mo siya dalhin-esp. new places-maski uncomfortable-she will say something nice that will make you ask urself “OO NGA NOH? BA’T AKO DIKO NAKITA YUN? NA-ENJOY YUN? OR NA-FEEL YUN?” questions like that… ayan kate ha. In-admit ko na -dat sometimes ganun ako whenever I’m wid u and den I realize dat u always see d beauty in anything & in everything.
-MARIE JOY MONTE 04/02/2008

si kate ay simpleng babaeng napaka gusto ko ang ugali..... dahil nagpapaka TOTOO cya...... cya ung taong hindi mo makikitaan ng ka plastikan.... Special saakin si kate bilng isang tunay na kaibigan......... mahal ko yan sobra..... sa mga times kate na nangugulo ako... pasencya na ha....:(( sorry sa lahat....... sayng tapos na ang sem....hindi na tayo ganung makakapag bonding..... sayang... pero ganun naman tlg ang buhay nasa huli ang pagsisisisi....... kate thank you very much dahil naramdaman ko yung tunay na kaibigan sayo... wag ka sana magbago.... sana mmakuha ko yang talent mo magaral..... kc napakasipag mo mag aral.... geh kate...thank you ulit
-EARL JEFFREY ONG 03/17/2008

my cuzin kate is truly one of a kind. a silent water that runs very deep. a self-controlled person that does not procrastinate and knows the value of time very well. she has never been late! can you imagine that? what i really like most about her is she knows how to appreciate almost everything in this world! from hot humid places to the extreme coldness of the weather to the tiniest raindrop that catches her attention. she view things in a very different perspective. everywhere she look-she sees art in it. well, with photography as a hobby, she can turn anything unsightly to look at to something very beautiful.
Kate knows her true source of wisdom and strength and this I believe is what's keeping her on a level ground. she is never proud or conceited. She is always humble. I thank God he gave you kate- as my cuzin.
-MARIE JOY MONTE 09/03/2009

BYE TAMMY..

Tita Amy's Tammy is dead. :( My favorite among her noisy dogs..

WHY GOD?

Have you ever noticed that people tend to blame God the most?

I did, because consciously or unconsciously, I found myself blaming God, many times.

When I haven’t had sleep and I wanted to rest but some party goes on in the neighbourhood and they make noise, I ask God, “Why here?”

When I can’t sleep without any reason at all, I ask God “Why won’t you allow me to sleep?”

When a rain pours out while I’m out wearing my all-white clinical uniform, I ask God “Why now?”

When a flood took hundreds of lives, I ask God, “Why them?”

When a massacre happened, I ask God, “Why did you allow such bloodshed?”

When I become frustrated over a sinful habit, I ask God, “Why don’t you stop this?”

When I’ve hurt someone because of my words, I ask God, “Why did you allow me to say it?”

When I feel distant to God even if I longed for Him so much and all I can say is, "Why?" And the list goes longer.
So why do we blame God like this?

Maybe because we know that He is God and as a God, we thought He has the power to manipulate things according to what we want and what we see fit for us. But we sometimes forget that He gave us a free will to decide on our own. And when we’ve used our free will to do what pleases us, then it only led us messing our lives, we blame God.

When in fact, this free will that we have is meant to be used to voluntarily seek God’s will and live for it.

So then, after all those multiply questions, does God answer WHY?

Well, the more frustrating thing is he does not.

As to why God allows unfair, brutal and tragic things to happen, I think as finite humans, we are not in the business of asking why.

Because like Phillip Yancey wrote, the answers remain in God’s domain and God has not seen fit to reveal them. As creatures, we have finite minds that can’t comprehend the infinite mind of God. I think, even if He tells the answers, we would never understand...

The only thing God asks of us is not to know the why’s but to trust Him that He knows what He is doing, and to believe that out of evil, even out of a terrible evil, God can bring out the good. I believe He asks us to believe and trust in Him because as humans, it’s beyond our capacities to know everything; and the only thing we are capable to do is to believe and trust in Him.

ONE WORD WORLD

What does LOVE really mean?

Some philosophers say it is blind. Is it really blind? Or the lover just chose to be blind? not the love in itself?

What's with love that a person doesn't mind waiting no matter how long it takes just to be with the one she loves?

My friend, Abi said, "It's worth the wait."

What's with love that it can change an entire world of a person?

Another friend said that it can give you the best and also the worst feeling you can ever have.

What's with love that once you have it, it's hard to let it go? or I should I say that once it had you, it's hard for it to let you go?

Apostle Paul said love is patient and kind.

Jesus said He loves us with an everlasting love.

Christians like me believe that love is not a mere emotion. It is a decision; or to state it in a greater weight, it is a committment.

Is love a command?

Some say it is a lifestyle.

Some only understand the romantic aspect of love, because I must admit, it is the easiest one to understand.

The kind of love that gives the best happiness when you're together.
The kind of love that gives you the worst pain when you break up.
The kind of love that gives present during special dates on special calender dates.
The kind of love that wants to know everything about a person and the same love that longs to be with that person.

What's with love that an unsatisfied hunger for it can shatter hearts?

Is love a need?

The kind of love that a child longs for a parent to spend quality time with her.
The kind of love that longs for someone's presence.
The kind of love that longs for someone's shoulder to cry on.
The kind of love that longs to be heard.
The kind of love that longs to be talked to.

What's with love that people can endure a painful sacrifice for the good of the ones they love?

The kind of love that prompts a mother t go abroad to give better provisions for her family.
The kind of love that enables a husband to take care of a disabled wife.
The kind of love that enables parents to forgive a wayward child.
The kind of love that wants a person to be happy even if that happiness means pain to him.
The kind of Love that sends His son to save the world.

What does LOVE really mean?

Honestly, the romantic aspect of love is something I can just imagine but I still can not. It is something that I've never gotten into and I wonder when will be the time I could fully understand it on my own.

Or should I understand it?

Love as far as I can remember is one word that has the most definitions, yet not fully understood.

ABOVE THE FLOOD

Who would have thought this would be the picture of Metro Manila last Saturday?

Many of us thought that Typhoon Ondoy was not really terrifying. It was not a strong typhoon after all. But because of continuous heavy rain fall that day, many people were caught unprepared by the sudden rise of water.

Perhaps, you've heard some of the stories. Maybe, you're even one of those who were stranded on the road or in school; or your house was flooded, too; or maybe you were not affected at all.

As I watched the interviews of the victims yesterday, I noticed one thing. All of them are suffering from a great loss: loss of properties and worse, loss of a loved one. But I was touched because most of them still found something to thank for, and that is their lives.

"May awa ang Diyos dahil eto kami, buhay," said someone.

The tragedy is a reminder that in this life, everything we see are all fleeting.

That almost all the things we invest in today, will be gone someday.

That life is short, you'll never know when it will be over.

That we are as bare as we came to the world.

That we have to check our priorities in life because in the end, we can't really take anything from this world but our soul.

That as mere creations, we are in need of God, who is and who will always be above every flood.

(written last September 6, Sunday. ;)


To my dearest Savior, Lord and Father,

This is my second time to disciple someone after 2 long years of setting back from the harvest field and I really thank you for using me to win someone for you again.

I know that Ive been through a lot of roller coaster spiritual rides lately but the thought of YOU as my father makes me feel valued and secure. I used to see myself differently from how you see me. I used to hate and condemn myself but the truth that you died for me makes it plain how much you love me.

I truly hope and desire to be more intimate with you, to be closer to you and I hope you feel the same, too.

You're the greatest father anyone could ever have. You are loving, compassionate and forgiving. You're someone who can transform a life of darkness into a life of light. you have the voice that is able to calm the storm in my mind. You are the joy that makes loneliness sweet. You are the love that makes the weak strong. You are the hope that makes the future secure.

Thank you for making me you daughter.

Kate

DREAM

Seven years ago, I knew what I really wanted in life.

I knew I love writing-- anything! Journals, Poems, Letters..
I knew I love Travelling-- to set my foot on many beautiful places in the Philippines.

Just recently, I knew I love photography. It's an art I really appreciate and it's something I can relate to. I knew I had the skill to take gorgeous photographs. In fact, I dream to own one good professional camera one day.

When I entered College, I doubted what I really wanted because I took up a course that is soo far from what I knew I love doing.

Fours years have passed and I'm about to graduate from school, and you know what? I still love writing journals, poems and letters. I still love traveling, though I seldom have the chance to do it lately. I still love photography, though I haven't held my camera for quite awhile.

I realized that these passions in my heart haven't died, even if at some point in my life, I thought I took a path against them.

These passions are dreams yet to be fulfilled, but I know that in God's own time it will happen.

WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

Be still. Wait. and Pray.

It's quite easy to understand but it's definitely not easy to do. If there's something you really want to know; something you really want to have; something that you really want to get rid of as soon as possible; something you really really really want to be done now, it's hard to slow down and sit back for awhile.

But I guess, I have no choice. Jesus doesn't shout at the streets just to be heard. But perhaps, if I'l just try, just try to do what's written above, I'll hear HIM.

FIVE-HOUR WALK

I left Fairview at around 1:30 pm. It was too late when I realized that it was too early. At 2:00 pm, I was already at SM NORTH. So I decided to stay at Fullybooked The Block while waiting for Rona. I read some books and.. One of the books that'caught my attention was GOD CALLING (something like that) It says in the Introduction that I may not feel God stand beside me with a ready smile to encourage me; I may not feel Him but He is there, He's always there.

A perfect message for me in my UNFEELING SEASON.

Rona arrived at around 3:45. It's tiring to be the one who's always waiting.. but no matter how many times I say that, I still choose to be early and I always end up being the one who waits. :p

We went at Fullybooked and we just browsed some stuffs there. She didn't know I''ve been there for an hour already. Then we went to Annex and we spent another hour at Best Seller Bookstore. We had fun browsing Children books while chatting. :)

Marj came at 5pm I think. We ate some tokneneng at Skygarden. At least mas malinis dun! Then we ate Takoyaki. It's my first time to eat one. (hindi masarap. :c) Then we bought Miguelito's ice cream. I was so thirsty. Then we went to Dept Store to look for some wallets and earrings.

And at 6:45pm, I went home.. :) Not knowing whether I was happy or not..

But I'm thankful to be with RONA again. She's one of my closest friends that I need to treasure as long as I can.. :)