DECISIONS

"...Stand up for something. It is one of the most important lessons I have learned. Decide whether you will go with the black or white because there are no gray areas in life like this. I have learned to stick to what I believe in and ignore what others may say about it. Don't go with the world, go against the grain. I may make a wrong decision sometimes but standing up for something, also entails responsibility for whatever it will lead me to..."

-Rovy P. Malasan, Lampara 2008
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One of most helpless state you could ever experience is during those times when you don't know what to do. When all you have been doing is wrestling with alternatives and you never come up with a decision. It breaks my heart that I'm someone who is not afraid to take risks, someone who is not stopped by the fear of change-- but still I can't move forward because I cannot decide what to do in the first place. It's hard to wait. To just wait. You see, not knowing what to do is far harder than making a hard decision. I can seek advice. I can consider possibilities as much as I want, but at the end of the day, I'm still the only person who can decide for myself. At this point, I've made a hard decision, that leaves me no choice but to stand up for it-- no matter what the outcome will be.

SERIAL DATING.

If your Facebook status is about “love,” it might receive the most number of comments and probably like’s. If your tweet is about “dating,” it could be a trending topic for the day. If a song is “romantic” inspired, it would most likely top the music hit chart. If a movie portrays a good "love story," it would probably be one of the must see’s.

I would agree, though not totally to one Philippine Star Sunday Lifestyle Relationships (March 22, 2009) article, which says, “...we’re simply a people in love with love. That goes even for those of us who aren’t in love with anyone!”

Maybe it’s one of the reasons why this article caught my attention. Another thing is that the article, which is actually titled, “How and why I stopped being a serial dater,” is written from a guy’s perspective and he talked about dating in a different; or I say more sensible way.

“I’m the last person to assume to be authoritative about romance,” he said. “The best thing I’ve done with most of my relationships is to see them end, with a fundamental reason—I was in relationships for so many years and with so many folks for all the wrong reasons.”

“The biggest mistake? Getting into a relationship just for the heck of it. Or to escape a family situation, or a family, or yourself. To escape for any reason.”

He also mentioned the importance of love and respect in a relationship. “And never expect that love and respect go hand in hand. Sometimes they don’t. I’ve loved people I didn’t respect all that much, and I’ve respected some I wasn’t in love with.”

“....Proving love and earning respect take time and patience,” he added.

He also told about “Panacea,” which the meaning I’ve found out to be a remedy for all diseases, evils, or difficulties or a cure-all.

“Another big mistake I had was using my partner as panacea for not having dealt with personal issues I should have resolved before getting into any relationship. In the Philippines, we spend a huge amount of time not dealing with our issues, whether they involve parents, siblings, or ourselves.”

Lastly, here’s his point that I like the most. “Before you fall in love—even before you think you’ve fallen—take a breather and call a shrink. We’re a people who should have a national therapy conversation. The most important relationship you should ensure is with yourself first. [I say, God first. Yourself next.] Unless you fix what is inside, no other person, no matter how wonderful he or she maybe, will be able to do it for you.”

BACK TRACK HIGH-SCHOOL

It's a tiring day of sorting stuffs and throwing off things I don't need already and there are lots them! Whew. My room says she feels lighter now. Haha.

I've found a dirty box and there was a tiny notebook in there that I personalized as a slumbook way back in High school. :D Old school is cool.

Top Picks?

Q: What makes you smile?

Nikki: crush!
KC: Jowell's jokes

Q: Your day is incomplete if you did not...

Rona: take a bath
Joy: Breathe -Oo nga naman! haha

Q: Extraordinary power you wanted...Why?

Thel: See future thru people's eyes. -Whew. ang lalim!
Jowell: Immortality...I don't want to die. -Haha
Rona: Read minds

Q: First country you wanted to tour. Why?

Nikki: US.. para tisay!
Marj: Continent na lang..Europe!
Jowell: Philippines...tanga masaya dito! -hahaha

Q: If your life is a movie, what will be its title?

Thel: In the Eye's of a Teen
Nikki: Flirt in the School
Rona: Rona the Great
Joy: Joy's World
Marj: Foolish Mind
KC: Simple KC -Wow, parang Simply KC lang.. Ginaya ka!

Q: Motto

Thel: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return
Rona: Lier goes to hell
Joy: Everything happens for a reason
Marj: Live life to the fullest!
KC: Enjoy life

Dedications

Nikki: "...Muztah? Tagal nang buhay , no? Gusto ko na yatang mamatay eh (joke)"

Rona: "...Basta remember kahit kasing laki lang ng kamao ang puso ko, nandun ka."

KC: "...Tnx for letting me sign here (kahit di tayo masyadong close)" -second yr highschool pa kasi to eh. haha

And the best among the rest dedications:

Jowell: "Thx for letting me 2 sign in ur flirting autograph like u. (JOKE) Thx rin bcoz I have a friend like u bcoz sa lahat ng flirt u r the one who is very behave." -hahaha

DO I TRUST YOU?

There's one song I heard today that really captured my present thoughts and feelings towards God.

Sometimes my little heart can't understand
What's in Your will, what's in Your plan.
So many times I'm tempted to ask You why,
But I can never forget it for long.
Lord, what You do could not be wrong.
So I believe You, even when I must cry.

Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the river flow?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the north wind blow?

You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

I know the answers, I've given them all.
But suddenly now, I feel so small.
Shaken down to the cavity in my soul.
I know the doctrine and theology,
But right now they don't mean much to me.
This time there's only one thing I've got to know.

Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the robin sing?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does it rain in spring?

You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

I will trust You, Lord, when I don't know why.
I will trust You, Lord, till the day I die.
I will trust You, Lord, when I'm blind with pain!
You were God before, and You'll never change.
I will trust You.
I will trust You.
I will trust You, Lord.
I will trust You.

TOGETHER

Shown during a Father's Day Special service in our church. Be inspired. :)