WORDS THAT CAUGHT ME TODAY

"....Because sometimes, you have to step outside the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be, the person you want to be, the person you are."

-One Tree Hill

In any class, cadre, group or genre, there are those who sink to the middle and those through hard work and God-given ability rise to the top.

-from Yahoo (Scariest Movie Stories)

Kate got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

-from a Facebook Quiz

(This one really GOT me. This message is sooo real for me that I can't help smiling for God aftet I've read it. :) )

You are called to be a creative spiritual mentor,you are a natural story-teller,you have an ability to express the love of God to children especially,and help their faith grow bountifully. You come alongside of people who ...are lost and minister to them. You persevere through trials and always encourage the weary.You understand that in order to be filled you must first be empty. You love to be a part of changing lives. You are compassionate and correct and teach other believers with love,patience and long-suffering. You are aware that you have many talents,abilities and gifts operating for the glory of God.You live a life pleasing before God and in covenant with him. You are richly blessed by your obedience! You offer your time and support to young and old alike. You have a thankful spirit towards the Lord,you have seen his faithfulness! Your passion is to see God's people come to the saving grace of Jesus!

-from a Facebook quiz again

(I was actually surprised when I read this result, because I never saw myself as a teacher! All the while, I've been thinking that I don't have the ability to teach WELL so I was really surprised. But who knows? haha. There are some words from here that I hold true for me, anyway. :) )

RANDOM PICTURES

Books I currently read.

Our borrowed street.

My Papa's favorite meryenda. haha. ;p

Funny :D I miss this.. I wish nothing has changed; but things have changed a lot already.

I'm wondering if this picture would ever happen again. :(

HIS SCHOOL

''...Everything that happended to me, everything both great and small, was something I had to learn! There was room for it in the infinite mind of the Lord and I had to seek the lesson in it, no matter how hard it was to find."

-Christ the Lord, Anne Rice

I have been thinking myself as a student of God in his high-standard, expensive and universal School. In His School, no one can cheat, because He sees everything. He hears every word I say and He knows every intention behind every act I do. In His school, there is that Book that every student must study: The Bible. And it's not enough to just study it but one would have to live by it. Of course, no school exists without examinations to give for its students. To my shame, In this School, I have taken the same tests several times and I still fail; though I thought I understood the lessons well. It hurts that I just want to drop out and leave that School.. but where would I go? I guess the compassonate Teacher of this School would never mind repeating those lessons to me until I truly learn them and finally pass The Test. :)

AT THE REAR VIEW

It's hard to be the one who's always waiting. (I think I've said this one before) But it's even harder to be the one who's always left behind... To feel like you've been in the rear for a long time while the people around you seem to advance. People come and go, they say. But it's hard to feel that you only seem to watch such scenario and not a part of it. You can adjust. Or you must adjust. Because as they say, the only constant thing in the world is CHANGE. But it seems like every change has a tint of pain, and a mixture of joy and sadness. One would just hope while waiting.

SI JUAN TAMAD, ANG DIYABLO AT ANG LIMANG MILYONG BOTO

This is a musical play we've watched at Philippine Educational Theater association last October 14-- for FREE!!

Since our group is no longer in need of DR cases, we thought of watching this play which is scheduled at 7:30 pm up to 9:30; at dahil malakas si JARL kay Maám Bacon, our level coordinator, pinayagan naman kami. :)

We stayed at Dr. Montano Ramos Hospital until 6:00 pm then we drove along Eymard Drive, New Manila, Quezon City, where PETA is located.

It was a fun night, especially for us as the target audience, I believe..

The play encourages citizens of this land, who are 18 years old and above, to take time to register and to participate in this coming election.

It playfully exposes the realities of Philippine's election world that has been part of its history-- from the candidates' perspective, to the voters, as well.

Due to some circumstances, I went home earlier so I wasn't able to finish the play.

Still, I had fun. As you watch the play, you'll realize that--for once-- you were like Juan Tamad, too. :)

UNCHANGED

"...Despite of the chaos of the present moment, God does reign; that regardless of how worthless I may feel, I truly matter to a God of love; that no pain lasts forever and no evil triumphs in the end..."

-Philip Yancey

We will truly never know what will happen tomorrow. We are living in a changing world. Unfortunately, it is changing for worse. Tragedy comes almost unexpectedly. So human plans are not sure plans at all. It seems like my faith is begining to understand that God is the only one who is unchanged.. We are like someone at the edge of a cliff, hanging on a frail tree branch to fight for his life. We need something.. someone stronger to lift us up. The question is, "Are we willing let go of the frail things we are holdin on right now, to grasp the stronger hands of Jesus?"

A LITTLE REMINISCING

Since Friendster’s popularity is already “deteriorating,” (mas uso na kasi ang facebook, twitter at kung anu-ano pang space sa cyberspace) I tried to explore my comment box, formerly testimonials (if you still remember) and I found myself smiling as I read some words from people I’ve known for years. Some also made me laugh, sigh, agree and ponder. ;) They may not say the same things now, but definitely I would like to thank them for the time they’ve spent and the efforts they’ve made to tell me how much they’ve appreciated me.

si KaTe?? she's one of my super kulit na pupils way back..wag na! secret na natin yun, ok? dalaga ka na nga...sana marunong ka na maghugas ng pinggan (remember???) tsaka...mag-ayos ng higaan (don't deny!!!) but i'm sure, you have become one of the finest young ladies around...and i'm proud of you because of that! gensan was an experience worth keepin' kasi kasama kita...o ayan, bumawi na ko ha? be good and remain with the Lord...
-LILIBETH NIVERA NAVATA 08/13/2005

c k8? isa sa mga hinahangaan q sa rum.. bkit? kc sooper talino ni2ng girl na 2 & dmi xang frendz... la xang nakakaaway & isa xang gud frend.. seatm8 kmi nung 3rd yr kc lumipat aq ng upuan.. dun q xa lalong nkilala.. grabe! hirap kopyahan ni2.. one tym nga nagtatanong aq ng sagot, dumila lng xa sa kin (BAD GIRL noh?)heheeehh! pro, sarap kausap ni2, ang daming m222han sa knya.. mgaling pa sa pgwa ng mga essay 2... nu pb?? wel, k8 sna mgkita pa rin tau sa college & sna rn mging close pa tau ngaun... heheeh! un lng... i will mizz u! luv yah fwend! heheheh! (oi! testi ko rn huh!)
-JENNIFER MAURE 10/08/2005

C kate?? Uhmm.... Well, my beloved ever na lgi kong kabaranggay sa seat plan... Lam nio b story nmin ni kate.. ac2lly, close kami hnd lng sa seat plan pti sa real lyf... Well, nung single p q.. lgi ko clang ksabay ni jowell sa pg-uwi.. Kumakain kmi, nagtatawanan.. minsan nag-aasaran.. Ac2lly, pg inasar nio xa uusok yang ilong nia.. Hehe.. Jokez.. Naghihiraman dn kmi ng notes dti.. Nlalagyan p nga nmin un ng dedications eh.. Sa 22o lng, ECHO staff yn.. Preho nga kming associate editor eh.. xa, sa SChoOl paper tpos aq nman sa yrbuk.. Di nakakasising mkilala 2ng c kate.. msaya xa ksama... at take note,, tngnan nio lhat ng shots nia iisa lng ang posing... Un lng kate!! Gud luck sa goals moh in college.. stay humble and pretty... Luv yah olweiz..
-NIKITA ANGELES 10/31/2005

kAtE!
huHu.. graduation nA! wAg mo kLimutAn uNg mGa hApi moMents ntiN ah...
eSp eCho rUm! waHehe.. Lam m nMng dMi taUng msSayang xPerienCes duN eh..
bSta aftEr gRaduatiOn, tx tx nLng ah.. aNyweiz,.,
c kAte anG iSa s mGa tRusted fRenz Q... Lab Q 2 kC xA Lng nkKatiiS s kKuLitan Q... at xEmpRe Lab diN aQ niAn dhiL aQ Lng din nkKatiiS s mGa pMatay n kuRot niAn! uN ang fOrm ng pgbAti niA eh.. Lab Q 2 kC, 1 in a miLLion 2. xA Lng aNg mRiriniG mo Lging nGreRekLamong di Q mLaman kNg mtatAwa aQ o aNo. Preho diN tAkbo ng utAk nMin. aNime adiK kMi pReho eh. mGa utAk aniMe eh npPgiwAnan n atA... rEmembEr uNg mgA tyms Last eCho gA seMinar? taU niNa kUya jp, ciSco at roGie ang nGkweKwen2han! maMimiSs tLga ktA! gRabe, everYday seeMs to be d 1st dAy we mEt. dMi Q n22kLasang bgO saU... uNg mGa kLokohaN ntiN s buHay hAyskuL. puNo ng tWanan! iLng daYs 2 go nLng b? <--- dont wori, bDay Q uNg tNatanonG Q! kLa m b kNG ano n nMn?? inGat Lgi...
-RONA MAYE GONZAGA 03/10/2006

yan c KaTe?!?! uhmm.. isa yan sa pinaka maSecRetong niLalAng sa ChuVanerzszs na World Nang M2kRje..
sabi nga namin nung 2nd yIr.. Xa Ang amInG FRUSTRATED FLIRT! panu ba nmn laging nagwawala... asus... at alam NiO ba.. pag yan Ang naging Seatm8 Mu E.. naku..d Ko Nalang alam ang mgiging reacxOn mu Pag Bigla ka nIaNg kukurUtin!!! wohoww!!!!at bigla xAng manghihila ng BuHok..my buHok Namn xAng sarili... hay naku talaga!!! BEWARE!!!
wahahaha... yang taong yan.. as in yng choovanes na yan.. isa yan sa mga taong tinetreasure kOh.. magkaron ka ba naman ng ganyang FRIEND maghahanap k pa ba?!?! dun sa umiiKoT na NOtEbOoK namin... naku Xa ang pinakapinag KuKUnaN kong Lakas.. kaze MalaKas Ang kapit nia Sa Kanya e!! as in k PAPA GOD!! super pag malungkoT ako.. She gave me EnouGh Strength!!! xempre hind mabubuo ang M2KrJe kung wala kaming KATE db?!?! ang Fangeth na nun.. MKrJe nalang... NEVER!!! kze kht na malayo na tau to eachother...connected parin!!txttxt e.
yan c KATE!ganDha Ng Lola mO!
-JOY MARIE LEONOR 04/04/2006

hay ito na po!!! eto c kate nagpatesti sakin ehh isang tao lang pagitan namn ehh!! nandi2 kami ngaun sa excel kasi wala lng!!! heeheh trip!!! aga namin kc pinalabas ng prof!!! eto c kate nakasama ko 2 dahil nung 1st day of classes eh late ako!! at kung late na nga ko ehh mas late pa xa sakin!! un un!!! unang samahan namin heheh dahil mga late!!! ang kulet!!! kausap ko na 2 sa phone ka 3 way ang lolo naming me gus2 sa lola namin!! heheh hanlabo b??? basta para bang mga butiki na ewan!!! connection??? heheh senxa na ala ko sa kondisyon ngaun para mag-isip ng mga walang kwentang baagy!! balik nga pla kay kate ehehehe eto nagsama sakin sa victory hehe ayan 2loy nahikayat ako kc namn aalis na ko ehh pinigilan pa!!! ganun tlga un noh!!! sb pa niya hindi namn cguro magagalit nanay ko!!! hay aun nakauwi ako ng 7:30!!! eto kc patesti testi pang nalalaman!!! oist ako din bigyan mo ahh!!! daya ka kung hindi!!! basta tandaan mo kung me butiki tignan mo lng!!! sasaya na araw mo!!!:p
-CHARIZA LASALA 06/30/2006

Kate de Guzman
Pinsan ko!! Grabe ganda ng friendster nyan . . kkbilib..!! simple lang yan tsaka friendly... kakaiba ung tawa nya.. hahaha ui sorry ha!! D ko po cnsadya lhat ng gnwa ko or nasabi.. sorry!!
God fearing yang tao.. hehe bagay cla ni ronylfo..haha..peace tau...luv you!
K-akabilib
A- dik s text at telepono
T-eka!! Wla na qng masabi..hehe
E- nthsistic s lhat ng bgay..
Yan c kate...
Leanne-cute
-LEANNE KAYE LIM 07/03/2006

Hmmm
si kate, simpleng tao masarap kasama, kakwentuhan, kadaldalan, kachikahan, kakulitan, at maging kaibigan.... maraming kwento sa buhay......kahit di pa kami maxado close magkakaibigan winelcome nya agad kami sa haws nila hehe... sarap tumambay sa kanila.... minsan pareho mga trip namin nito..... mahilig sa christian songs.... minsan nga nagduduet kami nito eh kahit nasa telepono lang..... matalino din yan si kate laging nakakakuha ng mataas na score sa mga quizzes namin..... kakabilib.... hehe basta ingat lagi keep your heart burnin' for JESUS.... godbless... mwahugzzzzzzz
-KATHERINE RIVAS 07/09/2006

KATE
C kate.. luv n luv ko..
Praning din yan.. kaya nga angels of the same feathers flock together.. Malambing xa kasi d mo namamalayan nkakapit n pla xa sau..he he he Xa ang pinaka matino s aming mga loka loka.. kasi xa lang ang matino.. db?? Gets mo?? Xa love na love ako (nga b??) ksi d nya ako inaasar.. ngiti lng xa ng ngiti.. Tapus pg tumawa xa nkkwindang,.. ung tawang d mo alam kung san nanggaling.. s lupa b? sa tubig?? S outer space?? Pro alam ko n s knya nanggaling un ksi xa un tumatawa eh.. hahahahaIngat lage.. hahaha Godbless!!
-LEANNE KAYE LIM 07/26/2006

kate!
wahai kate, miss na kita! wala akong matagpuang kate na ugale, kate na kurot, at kate na kulet sa uste! namumukod tangi talaga ang kate na nakilala ko sa kyoka...
miss na kita bruha. bute nalang my telepono na kayo di ba? at may unli pa... haha.
ayun sana magkita tayo sa kyoka next time... naku, baka magtatatalon ako pag nakita kita! well, ganyan kita kalab! haha.
si kate, ayan, pag wala yan sa mood, di yan masyado nangangausap. kaya malalaman mong may tampo agad. pag asa mood naman, kung hindi siya magkwekwento ng mga panaganip niyang naaalala pa niya, e mangungurot! grabe, walastik to, kasi naaalala pa niya ang mga panaginip niya... haha.
ayun, siya lang naman ang katrina rivero de guzman na lokaret.
-RONA MAYE GONZAGA 07/28/2006

Halersh Girlalu!!! Itong si KATE ay isang masayahing bata,,,!!!Gust2 ko nga yang maging close pa eh ung as in CLOSE...Wel;,well...naging close ata kmi nito nang dahil ky JULIAN!!! tama ba??? k lang sking kung 2maba ang JULIAN ko noh!!!!asawa ko pa rin xa khit anung mngyari!!!hehehehehe!!!!!...............Nagarap dw b???? k lang yan..libre ang mangrap noh!!!Ang cute ng SMILE n2ng gurl na 2!!! Akala ko nga mahinhin itong si kate eh, HINDI pla!!!!Well..,,well,,,...masarap ksama yan,,,try nio???? Hhhmmmmnnnnn.......lav na lav ko yan!!!!,.,ang BAIT kcng bata!!!Ooowwwsss tlage??????.....Jowk!!!!! Mmmmmhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaahhh hhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!Ingatzzz lagggggeeeeeeeeee!!!

Asawa ni Julian,
Ever

P.S.
Wag knang magreklamo huh??Honey aq ni Julian ko!!!!heheheheh!!!....
-EVER QUEEN LEONO 07/30/2006

kate, one of the best friend av ever had. sweet. matalino. mabait. maldita pag ma sumpong. hmmpt. masaya kasama.heaven....
-JAN CARE ROSETE 08/18/2006

kate kate ko, helllooooo.. hehe..
c kate? cya lang naman po ang isa sa mga frienship ko, actually, honestly, definitely, absolutely, and accidentally, hehehe, bestfriend ko.. lumayas yan ng agno pagkagraduate nami ng elementary kaya naman andami naming namiss na events and moments ever together, hehehe, kaya pag umuuwi yan ng agno, hay, kulang ang isang araw na daldalan.....hay kate, mis na kita.. hehe.basta, kahit sang lupalop kapa ng lamang lupa naroon ngaun, andito lang ako kabsat, okey... ingat ka palagi, hope to see you so soon and i rily miss you> mwwwwwwwaaaahhhhh>>>. Labyah!
-FLORA MAE NIBUT 09/15/2006

hay nku c kate nagmamaganda..............sapilitan ata 2ng paggawa ko ng testi kc gnawan nya rin aq......jowk......mustah n? grabeh d na me upd8d sa inyo pabayan nyo bili na rin me ng Globe.....hahahah. Lam mu.....grabeh ala aqong gnawa sa college kundi magcutting....mukha hcng mga tyanak ung mga prof q........kya nga db lilipat na me ng skul magnurcng nlang me para parehas tyo hahaha gayagaya kc aq eh.........nq c k8 sadista 2 laging nangungurot......magkakapasa braso mu d2 sa kakakurot.......laging q i2ng kasabay sa pag-uwi nung high skul........mabait 2ng batang 2......pero minsan sumpungin hahahah.....sana nuod ulit tyong cne sa sem break......wag mung sabihin na uuwi na naman u ng pangasinan.......sa holloween kna pumunta dun heheheheh.......grabeh college na tyo ha sbi mu dadalhin mu kme sa pangasinan....manghuhuli tyo ng fish at jellyfish.......hay nq lapet n rin finals namen grabeh parang ala me na22nan jowk meron rin naman kahit papaano........cge na bye..kita kits..
-JOWELL FURIGAY 09/30/2006

kate...sabi nga nia, "ka-tandem" ko siya sa lahat... from campaign manager, ECHO, pabinhian.. sobrang deep nia person... matampuhin din minsan... she's one of the "K" in M2KRJE.. photogenic.. (wui, totoo yan!) nga pla.. dunno if i posted this on previous testimonials... pero xa un very first friend ko sa kyoka! that was when we took the Alvendia Scholarship exams... damn... 4 or 5 years ago. grabe.. time flies.. we're now in college... kapwa nursing student... sa dinami-rami nursing school na pde pasukan ng QCAians... kami dalawa un nagsosolo sa kanya2 skul... she attends FEU (fairview), me in UST.. sooobrang bonding namin ngaun... kahit hndi physically... salamat sa GLOBE. nga pala thanks sa cooperation whenever i organize get-togethers. hai kate.. i love you sooooo much. i know you're one of the few real friends that i have.... i know in 10, 20, 30 years we'll still be communicating.
-ANNAH MARGARITA MONTESA 10/22/06

hey!!! k8!!! mustah kana grabeh d me mak2log kaya gawan nalang kita ng testi....nu b yng pic mu naka tirintas (tama b?) mukha kng anime...parang cast kalang ng naruto, lalabasan kana ata ng shakra hahahah.....musta naman lyf mu?? mustah nurcing.... grabeh ang hirap mgaral parang auko na nakakabored...kaw masaya b ang collej lyf....aq nga gus2 ko ulit mag high skul kc naman kainggit ung kapatid ko praktis ng praktis.....grabeh d ko tlaga mabago 2ng ugali ko anggang ngaun parang ako pa rin pinaka maingay sa rum hahahah.......hay nku k8 kelan ba tau ulit magki2ta ....mamaya may asawa kana pagnagkta tau ulit....oi!! mustah nga luv lyf mu......oi!!! may boifwend kna koh!!!! hahah...cguro kung meron nakurot mu na lahat nga bahagi ng katawan nun hahahah jowk......nka2mis ung kurot mu ala kcng nangungurot sakin ngaun collej na.....pati nanay ko d na nangungurot hahaha kaya nakakamis......hay galingan mu sa skuling mu ha!!!!..... Tik kir nlang olweyzzzz.....kit kits nlang ulit ....ingatz..
-JOWELL FURIGAY 03/03/2007

c kate.. mmm.. grabe, hinahangaan ko xa ksi ang dami nyang qualities na wahaw talaga. tsaka andami nya nagagawa na gusto ko din gawin kaso aun walang chance. hehe mabait xa,sobra. pag may hinanakit ako, xa ang nasasabihan ko tapos ung mga advice nya tumatatak sa kokote ko. she's really a good example to everyone. kahit minsan nakakatakot pag nagagalit, ngumingiti nalang kami ni cha. napaka broad din ng mga ideas nya, tsaka may prinsipyo sa buhay. masaya maging friend, game sa lahat. haha parang mentor ko yan e, kasi ung mga bagay na d ko alam xa ung nag-eexplain. basta madami pdeng sabihin kay kate na good things. kaya, d2 lng ako as long as you want me to be here. pxnxa sa shortcomings at ka-ignorantehan. love you. =)

-LEANNE KAYE LIM 04/23/2007

si kate.. hinding hindi uuwi ng walang mantsa sa uniform hahahaha!

-LEANNE KAYE LIM 01/08/2008

hoy hoy hoy hoy... hahahahaha nu ka ba.. npka fessimistic m tlaga pgdting jan.. tsk tsk.. d k naman masama eh, walang taong masama. iniisip m lng un..eto..

1.) freedom of choice - freedom to think and act. to think in a positive way. choose to control yourself.

2,) chance to change for the good - it's hard to change kung talagang my mga circumstances na nproprovoke ka..pero patience lang. tska determination. hindi ung feeling bad n kaagad. kasi anchaka, npka pessimistic lalo n ung "onting tiis nlng di m n ko mgiging klasmeyt" e anu kaya un?? prang sinabi mong tinitiis ko lang n ksama ka.. i enjoy your company.. pati sila claire and cha. so wala naman akong pakialam kahit masungitan m ko ng mraming beses.
bsta un lng payo ko, never give in sa ganyan. yan ang lalason sayo. bsta think of people na ina accept ka as you are.. un lang. mrami ngmamahal sayo khit mrami kng shortcomings. =)

-LEANNE KAYE LIM 01/13/2008

You’ve got to hate her to love her and vice versa. She knows what she wants at dun ako bilib sa kanya. Kasi ako minsan hindi ko na alam ang gusto ko dahil sa sobrang-dami. He..He..He..This gal has ‘focus’ too. She never procrastinate. I still remember her H.S days when used to live with us. Yung mga projects niya na 2 to 3 months pa ang pasahan she’ll do it in a matter of days! Henyo kasi ang isang 2 eh..While her classmates cram pag malapit na ang pasahan, kaya xia? Pa banjing-banjing na lang.She also knows how to enjoy! And that is one of my best descriptions of her. Kahit san mo siya dalhin-esp. new places-maski uncomfortable-she will say something nice that will make you ask urself “OO NGA NOH? BA’T AKO DIKO NAKITA YUN? NA-ENJOY YUN? OR NA-FEEL YUN?” questions like that… ayan kate ha. In-admit ko na -dat sometimes ganun ako whenever I’m wid u and den I realize dat u always see d beauty in anything & in everything.
-MARIE JOY MONTE 04/02/2008

si kate ay simpleng babaeng napaka gusto ko ang ugali..... dahil nagpapaka TOTOO cya...... cya ung taong hindi mo makikitaan ng ka plastikan.... Special saakin si kate bilng isang tunay na kaibigan......... mahal ko yan sobra..... sa mga times kate na nangugulo ako... pasencya na ha....:(( sorry sa lahat....... sayng tapos na ang sem....hindi na tayo ganung makakapag bonding..... sayang... pero ganun naman tlg ang buhay nasa huli ang pagsisisisi....... kate thank you very much dahil naramdaman ko yung tunay na kaibigan sayo... wag ka sana magbago.... sana mmakuha ko yang talent mo magaral..... kc napakasipag mo mag aral.... geh kate...thank you ulit
-EARL JEFFREY ONG 03/17/2008

my cuzin kate is truly one of a kind. a silent water that runs very deep. a self-controlled person that does not procrastinate and knows the value of time very well. she has never been late! can you imagine that? what i really like most about her is she knows how to appreciate almost everything in this world! from hot humid places to the extreme coldness of the weather to the tiniest raindrop that catches her attention. she view things in a very different perspective. everywhere she look-she sees art in it. well, with photography as a hobby, she can turn anything unsightly to look at to something very beautiful.
Kate knows her true source of wisdom and strength and this I believe is what's keeping her on a level ground. she is never proud or conceited. She is always humble. I thank God he gave you kate- as my cuzin.
-MARIE JOY MONTE 09/03/2009

BYE TAMMY..

Tita Amy's Tammy is dead. :( My favorite among her noisy dogs..

WHY GOD?

Have you ever noticed that people tend to blame God the most?

I did, because consciously or unconsciously, I found myself blaming God, many times.

When I haven’t had sleep and I wanted to rest but some party goes on in the neighbourhood and they make noise, I ask God, “Why here?”

When I can’t sleep without any reason at all, I ask God “Why won’t you allow me to sleep?”

When a rain pours out while I’m out wearing my all-white clinical uniform, I ask God “Why now?”

When a flood took hundreds of lives, I ask God, “Why them?”

When a massacre happened, I ask God, “Why did you allow such bloodshed?”

When I become frustrated over a sinful habit, I ask God, “Why don’t you stop this?”

When I’ve hurt someone because of my words, I ask God, “Why did you allow me to say it?”

When I feel distant to God even if I longed for Him so much and all I can say is, "Why?" And the list goes longer.
So why do we blame God like this?

Maybe because we know that He is God and as a God, we thought He has the power to manipulate things according to what we want and what we see fit for us. But we sometimes forget that He gave us a free will to decide on our own. And when we’ve used our free will to do what pleases us, then it only led us messing our lives, we blame God.

When in fact, this free will that we have is meant to be used to voluntarily seek God’s will and live for it.

So then, after all those multiply questions, does God answer WHY?

Well, the more frustrating thing is he does not.

As to why God allows unfair, brutal and tragic things to happen, I think as finite humans, we are not in the business of asking why.

Because like Phillip Yancey wrote, the answers remain in God’s domain and God has not seen fit to reveal them. As creatures, we have finite minds that can’t comprehend the infinite mind of God. I think, even if He tells the answers, we would never understand...

The only thing God asks of us is not to know the why’s but to trust Him that He knows what He is doing, and to believe that out of evil, even out of a terrible evil, God can bring out the good. I believe He asks us to believe and trust in Him because as humans, it’s beyond our capacities to know everything; and the only thing we are capable to do is to believe and trust in Him.